As the hustle and bustle of high school begins to slow down, there are some obvious questions many of us will spend our time contemplating as we begin our jolt into adult society. We’re suddenly faced with endless life-shaping decisions. We’re tasked with making our own decisions. One of the greatest: whether to spend every opportune moment bettering our futures, or to just live life to the fullest before our “grown-up” responsibilities really set in. This exciting, stressful, hectic whirlwind of high school shapes our whole lives. We can make or break ourselves. We are faced with pressure from our schools, our teachers, our parents, our society, ourselves. And it’s hard to know exactly what to do. Most of us are just winging it; seeing where it takes us. And maybe that’s all we can do.
I’m so scared I’m going to wake up one day thirty. I’m going to wake up and think about all the things I never got to do. I’m going to wish I went there, or saw that, or I’m going to wish I spent time with my best friends before we started our lives apart from each other.
I’m also afraid that I’m not ready to be an adult yet. I’ve been taught calculus, and geometry, and when the civil war took place, but honestly, I’m not even sure what a mortgage is.
I’m even more scared I’m not going to end up where I want to; that none of the things I’m doing today will pay off. I’m scared that I’ll just blend into every person ever. And I don’t want to. I want to write, and tell people’s stories. I want to help raise awareness for people and better their lives.
As the world’s leaders-in-training, we’re ranked, compared, and plotted against each other, all fighting over internships, and scholarships, and college acceptance letters. And it’s scary. But, I’m beginning to realize that I can have both. I can balance the time I spend working and the time I spend indulging in my youth. “We need to be focusing on how we can better ourselves in this moment,” said Sarah Pascetti, high school junior.